Recently my life has been a series of ups and downs. A mixture of good, bad and ugly! Not getting into the sorry, little details of my life, I will tell that I have had about every emotion known to man in these last six months. Just when I think one challenge is ending, another begins. There are days when I wonder why I wake up to trudge through another moment and then I realize, I love being alive! Not only do I enjoy spending time with my husband and children, I know that no matter what I go through, things can always get worse. At those moments I begin to remind myself that when I feel like I can't go on, that's when I'm trying to do things in my own strength. I have to begin to lean on Jesus and let him carry me. Let's face it, we are all independent, and it is hard to relinquish control of our daily schedules, let alone our entire lives. I like to know what's ahead, how to plan my day, get my paper and pen out, and write those lists. Surprises are good too, but nothing compared to having a plan! No one can plan for a family member to become sick, or to lose a loved one to suicide. One moment your walking along and the surprise of your life strikes you with one phone call. At those moments, when life takes us by surprise, we need to remind ourselves that we are not in control. Even when things do not go as we think they should, God knows what lies ahead. We need to begin to lean on him and not for a moment think that we are strong enough to walk this road of life alone.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."