Have you ever felt so sick, that you literally feel like you are going to die? I'm sure we have all had the stomach flu, and you feel so sick that the thought of actually feeling well enough to walk around again is far from your mind. At those moments, a person feels so alone. No matter who is by your side, you are facing it alone. Others may have been through what you are going through and understand your feelings, but you are the one going through the pain and having to face it.
Our extended families have been hit hard with illness. Some of them handle it well and want people around them, others want to be left alone to deal with their own suffering, shutting others out. Now, I am a fixer by nature. When I see someone hurting, I want to run over and fix it immediately! I hate to see someone in pain, and fighting amongst each other makes me sad, because to me, life is just to short to waste a moment. There are times, though, that even if I do reach out, the other person doesn't want my help. They are the ones going through the actual pain, they are going through it alone and want to keep it that way. I may not understand it, but I have to learn to respect their decisions.
Not being able to understand why a person would want to go through something alone, God revealed to me that He can use the loneliness and pain to reach them. Have you ever tried to run away from God, or hide what you have done? God sees all, knows all, and obviously, you can't hide from Him! For awhile, things may be going ok all alone, until you start to hit some rough spots! Pretty soon things get worse and worse until you hit the lowest of lows. Right there, God has you cornered, doesn't He? Where does one turn to when there are no places left to run? They turn to God. At the weakest of moments, where there is no place left to hide, people turn to God. Someday when each of us face death, we will do it alone. People may hold our hands and comfort us, try to understand, but they cannot. We must each do it alone. Will you still be running? At that moment, eternity will have caught you in a corner, and there's no place to hide.
In your moments of heartache, loss and despair, reach out to God. You may be running away, but He has never left your side!
"Be strong and courageous. ...for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."